Ever feel like a steeping stone? Changing someone’s life, but in the end, you’re still the one being stepped on.
Let’s all admit it. Life sucks. You’re gonna get hurt. You’re gonna hurt people that you don’t want to, maybe you couldn’t help it, and it sucks. When you care for someone, and then mess up, do something that just completely shatter’s both of your worlds, and you’re just unsure what to do next. Unsure what’s even going on. You ask yourself “What are you doing? You messed up, and look where we are now.”
Having somebody who’s been close to you, who you could tell anything, who you had only occasionally thought about as more than a friend, is something amazing. Realizing that they were always there for you, were always helping you, were always just somewhere, doing everything they could to make your life better, for a reason is even better. Advice with dating, being there after breakups, might not have always been something they wanted to do, it was because they actually cared. And when you realize, when you ask, you just know that there is something more. They’ve already proved that they care, that you can trust them, that maybe this one can last for a while.
True, I’ve given up on the real world, however I haven’t given up on myself. The world doesn’t get to decide whether my life is boring, fun, or ordinary coz that’s my decision to make. As long as I have the will nothing is impossible!
I am nothing but a ghost of my past, nothing like i was before. I am a new person, and I will keep changing, evolving, and becoming new. Don’t bother trying to change who you are, you will change, and although it might not always be for the better, there will always be another evolution after that, so don’t be sad, don’t be angry, don’t hate yourself. Just know you are unique, enough so that you are different from yourself.
Sometimes things don’t turn out how you want them to. Sometimes you care too much. Sometimes you just wanna shut away your feeling, so that maybe you don’t care, but you always will, and it’ll keep hurting, you’ll keep hurting, but maybe someday you know you did the right thing, by leaving them, and they’ll know too.